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Hay naku.. Ang sagwa ng feeling noh. ‘Yung tipong akala mo, nakita mo na ang happiness tapos isang araw magigising ka na lang sa katotohanang, panaginip lang pala ang lahat. Walanjo. I hate to sound bitter, pero nakakainis talaga yang ‘tek na ‘love’ n yan. Actually, I’ve seen this coming, dapat hindi na ako nabigla. Nabigla, na isang araw, yung taong kay tagal mong hinintay, eh hindi na pala babalik. Walanjo. Kaya kayo, wag kayo masyado magpapadala sa mga pick up lines niyang mga ‘someone’ niyo! Wag kayo masyado magpapadala sa mga mabulaklak na pananalita. At higit sa lahat, wag na wag kayong magmamadali. Ano kayo, PBB Teens??! Pero teka, hindi naman ako nagmadali ah. Buti na lang hindi naging kami. Kaya hindi masyado masakit. haha. Pasalamat p nga ako at naudlot ung lovelife ko, kasi kung nangyare yun nung naging kami na, eh di lalung hurt na hurt ang feelings ko ‘teh, di ba. At least ngayong, nabawasan na ang agam-agam ko sa buhay. Hindi na akong aasa pang muli. Pero salamat na rin na sa sandaling panahon ay naranasan ko kung paano kiligin. Nyek!

I wouldn’t dare ask why, I’ll just let it be. If it’s not meant to be, then its not. I know God has a better plan for me. I’m sure of that. I know someday, I’ll also find my own happiness, a lifetime happiness.. I’ll just be here, waiting … waiting for the right time. ;)))

Ang lungkot nung last post ko ah.. hahahaha!

Sa isang araw, may ipopost ulit ako na poem! yihiiiiiiii. very special ang tula na yun! hihihi.. 

Hi Tumblr. Magandang gabi. Heto na naman ako, syempre walang magawa kinamusta kita. Matagal n rin tayong hindi naguusap eh.Wala na kasi akong maisulat eh. haha. Hindi ako masyado inspired ngayon magpose sa’yo ngayon eh. haha. Pero the fact na nandito ulit ako means that i miss you so much tumblr. Ikaw kasi ang tinuturing kong “my dearest diary”.. oha! haha panu ba namang hindi, eh wala naman kasi nagfa-follow sakin dito sa tumblr account ko. Kaya khit ano ang ilagay at ipost ko dito, wala naman ibang makakabasa kundi tayong dalawa lang di ba. Haha. Kakatawa. Para akong luka! But anyway, I have something to tell you. You know what that is? …..

I’m sad. I’m lonely. These past few days were the hardest for me. It makes me feel so deserted. I feel so hopeless…

hayst, I’m sorry Lord for feeling this way. I can’t help it. ;(

I made a poem last night, habang pinagpapahinga ko si Desktop computer. Dati kasi, kapag pinagpapahinga ko si desktop, si Laptop naman ang gamit ko, eh comatose ngayon si Laptop eh, kaya are. tyaga tyaga muna. hahahaha..

Anyway, are na nga.. I made a poem, at anoh.. hindi naman sya maganda. haha. It’s just that, I’m a frustrated writer lang talaga, ever since, kaya nga ako nag-open ng Tumblr account 3years ago eh.. Ewan ko, basta gusto ko lang talaga to eh.. O sya, eto na nga.. wala rin naman iba mkakabasa nito kundi ako lang eh, kaya OKIEY LANG! bwahahahaha..

Sa wakas …

Naabot ko na rin
Ang hangganan ng langit
Nahagkan ang mga ulap
Na kay tagal kong pinangarap

Nalangoy ang karagatan
At sumisid sa kailaliman ng kasiyahan
Umindak sa malalaking alon Kasabay ng matatayog na lipad ng mga ibon

Sa wakas …

Nang dahil sa bawat talang sumisikat
Natunton ko ang kasuluk-sulukan ng gubat
At nilabanan ang bawat tapang at bangis
Ng mga pagsubok na humahamon sa ‘king mga hapis

Hinabol pati mga nagdaraang alitaptap
Siniil sa mahigpit kong yakap
Sinikap kong ito’y hindi makawala
Upang liwanag nito’y maging gabay ng aking mga mata.

Sa wakas…

Naturuan ko ang sarili kong isuko ang lahat
At ipabatid sa akin na ito ang dapat
Pagkat sa pagsuko kong ito
Ang Diyos ang papasan aking mundo.

                                                           05/04/12   8:06pm

“Draw close to God, and God will draw close to you.”
- James 4:8 (NLT)

Have you spoken to God already this morning?? Well, if you haven’t done it yet, then you still have the whole day to do it. But just a piece of advice. Don’t you ever come out of your bed, or get out of your house without giving a bit of your time to talk to God and listen ti His words. It will do you good, PROMISE!. ;)

As the verse says, God will be as close to you as possible as you wish to be. Developing a good relationship with Him is so up to us! Every time we speak to God, every time we chat with Him, every time we become honest to Him, we are becoming friends with God. Isn’t it? So guys, let us not hinder ourselves to becoming close to Him. Take time. Establish a good relationship with God. For that, God will be as delighted as we are. He will surely be happy because we’re considering HIm not just as a Father or a brother, but also His BESTFRIEND. ;)))

Tara lets! Let us not just ADD HIM AS A FRIEND..
Let us also SHARE HIS GOODNESS TO OTHERS.. throughout this day and for the rest of our lives!

God Bless everyone!
-Fabfaye

Good Day! It’s a rainy day! ‘Lungkut-lungkutan’ again …

         You know what lungkut-lungkutan means? Oh well, it only means that you’re feeling sad and lonely! Oh come on,it’s the weather of course! It’s, uh, making me feel alone, deserted, empty, down, isolated, lonesome, etcetera… etcetera!

         When it’s raining its either you sleep or you think. haha, right? But you can do the same. Everytime it’s raining, I’m always having a lot of realizations. So, what kind of realizations? Anything you can think of! hahahaha.. Sometimes, I think of happy thoughts! yes. That’s the best thing to do. No pressure, no loneliness, just happiness!   But because I’m one crazy girl, I also reminisce the things that made me feel bad, deep inside my heart. (sigh) Just like now, there are a lot of thoughts that are coming out of my mind. Things I regret, things that are still unsettled. Unsettled, because we all know that in our life we have so many questions with no answers, problems that are yet to be solved and prayers which are not yet heard. I always think about them before I go to sleep. I think about how to get past them. I think about how to perfect things. I think about how to make my prayers be answered. Well… I just tell myself to SURRENDER. Yes. You read it right. After all those reflections, I just wanted to surrender, surrender everything to God. It’s very ironic, but I am sure that it’s the best thing to do. I know by surrendering everything to Him alone, He will lift me up and show me the right path to the lighted answers. No pressures, no loneliness, just happiness! ;)

Actually, the poem below was written by me, a few years back during the fight of Manny Pacquiao which I coudn’t remember who his opponent was… 

You struggled a lot
Gave your best with every shot
Controlled your hunger
Acted like a soldier

You practiced more
And got more strength
You valued every moment
And became a fighter

You caught me once
And impressed me
You fought endlessly
Still, I WON.

- May 03, ‘09

Lord, thank you for all these trials.. I will humbly accept these, for I know, you’ve given these to me, to further strengthen me. And to test me. Thank you Lord. Sure, I’ll never give up. And i’ll accept defeat, if ever.. Good Night! ;)))